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private drawings such as sketches, portraits and various handmade drawings. Due to the fact that it is not possible to hide folders, I decided to use this form of collecting my works
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It's been almost two months now, 28 days to be exact.
This morning I woke up and saw you at the foot of my bed by my feet where you used to lay. I sat up and reached to pet you, but when I opened my eyes again you weren't there, I was reaching for empty space. Sometimes I see you out of the corner of my eye walking through the house or running through the yard. It makes my throat tighten and my eyes burn every time I realize it can't be you. Whenever "Capricorn - A Brand New Name" plays on my iPod I think of you and how you would run from out of nowhere and get excited when you heard the intro. Every night when I lay awake because I can't get to sleep I think of you. When I wake up, I find myself in the same position I used to sleep in when you were around, legs crooked so you could curl up in the crook of my knees and back straight in case you wanted to lay back to back with your head on the other side of my pillow. When the screensaver comes on the computer with a slideshow of pictures I often find myself staring at the pictures, faded memories, and not even realizing when it changes. Every time I think about you I come close to breaking down, but I can't stop myself. You were the bright light to my life, the one thing that kept me tied to the earth. But now your gone away forever. I can't stop myself from thinking about the 'what-ifs'. What if I had let you go to a new home... What if I myself had found the money to get you your vaccinations instead of waiting on my cheap asshole of a father to get around to getting off his rear end and do something for someone other than himself to get them... What if I had woken up earlier that day... What if... What if...
I'm not ready to let you go, let you fade, let you die...
Forever and for always you will be my one true love, and wherever you are, I hope you know that. I miss you, and I wish you were here, but the least I can do is hope that wherever you are, you are content and happy, surrounded by rawhides and stuffed giraffes with squeakers in them.
In loving memory of Sweenie, April 2009 - December 2009
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Poor Sweenie 
good picture though!
good picture though!